I AM SORRY, I AM A FIRST TIME USER, AND I SHOULD NOT HAVE WRITTEN SO MUCH, ESPECIALLY THE WAY I DID.
of my moods and give me comfort and play as I need each. I have wonderful friends that care for me and that have read this long article! I am blessed. It has changed a lot

from the time when I thought only angels such as Aunt Jen, Grandma, and Aunt Anner Mae gave me food, a place to sleep where I felt safe and loved. They actually hugged me and told me that they loved me. I am forever grateful to these three women. These people and the friendships from so long ago that continue even now feel blessed to me. And the friends that I have only known for a short time, the friends that are here for me now...they give me comfort and support as I need it. They also give me laughs when I need them too. Thank you to all my friends and family. God bless all of you!

So, again, back to the subject, I used to want to be a lady, now I want to be a peaceful Christian woman.

the impact people and time have made on the environment, in the way we eat and take care of ourselves. I do not want to believe that the Old Testament law still exists that because of my ancestors that I will be punished for their sins or even my sins from yesterday or from the first sin I committed. I believe that God sent his son to us; so that we can confess our sins and ask forgiveness and that we will receive it. I believe that Jesus Christ has saved us and that we now can go to heaven when it is our time.

I have many wonderful blessings in my life. I am now married to a wonderful man who loves me. I have two wonderful sons who are making a great life for themselves. And as of this morning my husband and son talked to each other and worked through much of their anger issues with each other and life. They have agreed to talk to each other and work out their problems with each other. I have such great animals that give love and attention each day; they notice each of my

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the impact people and time have made on the environment, in the way we eat and take care of ourselves. I do not want to believe that the Old Testament law still exists that because of my ancestors that I will be punished for their sins or even my sins from yesterday or from the first sin I committed. I believe that God sent his son to us; so that we can confess our sins and ask forgiveness and that we will receive it. I believe that Jesus Christ has saved us and that we now can go to heaven when it is our time.

I have many wonderful blessings in my life. I am now married to a wonderful man who loves me. I have two wonderful sons who are making a great life for themselves. And as of this morning my husband and son talked to each other and worked through much of their anger issues with each other and life. They have agreed to talk to each other and work out their problems with each other. I have such great animals that give love and attention each day; they notice each of

When I read the article that I am posted here, it made me think. I have been exhausted from doing the appointments, I am not used to even being out for that long for one day much less several days this week. I have not been sleeping well because I have been stressed with Derick and Russ arguing for several weeks and both of them coming to me with their anger. And I started a new medicine for my back pain that radiates down my hips, leg, and foot and the fibrolygia that I now have. The doctor gave me a suggestion on changing the time I take the doses and it worked and I started sleeping more than four hours at a time.

So all in all, what a strange expression, I have been thinking a lot this week. This article touched my heart. I hope we are good enough friends that my words are something that you read and this article is something that you take to heart in your lives for yourself and the ones you love. I don't need any feedback. I don't need any pity. If you want to write me back about this that is fine, if not that is fine too. This article as I said touched my heart and it was like a light switch. I was thinking yesterday that I don't have any goals or plans anymore, that one day at a time is my plan. But this article gives me something to think about and make a goal to work towards, to be this woman who at peace with her life through all her hardships. To be at peace, not just for the moment, but for it to be a goal. To be able to trust in God, to be able to firm up my belief that he loves me each day, no matter what I do, how I feel. To know in a more concrete manner that I can be at peace and believe that God will be there by my side each day and sometimes each moment, to allow us (my family and I) to survive. That is not to say that we will never have problems, that we will be healthy always and live forever, be to be at peace in a long-term manner for what happens in this world. I believe that many things or sins happen to us because of

I wanted to be a lady, when I was young. A lady didn't have people calling her names like white trash; no one says they have cooties. They are loved, respected. People touch them, friends and family hug them. People talk to them and listen to what they say. When a lady has a problem, all she has to do is ask for support, and she gets it--at least in my mind then.

This week I started my VA healthcare with a round of appointments. The initial impression from my answers was that I was depressed. I was asked so many times if I was suicidal. After talking with the mental health doctor, her impression and mine is that I have anxiety issues. And she said that I have reasons to have anxiety issues after my childhood, being married to an abusive man, and then getting beat up at work several times and being disabled from it.

Years ago when I was being brought up in a broken down old trailer in rural Mississippi, I wanted to be a lady. I also wanted to be loved, and went through years of trying to have love by sleeping with men, some of them that I had just met. I wanted hot water in my house so I could take a hot shower. Cold showers are the pits even in MS in the winter. I wanted to feel safe since I was beaten on a regular basis and sexually assaulted several times during one week when I was nine. I wanted food to eat. I wanted food that was cooked well, that tasted like something you wanted to eat. I wanted to be able to eat my food without someone standing over me with a belt or just laying it across the chair when they got tired of standing, though many times I had to stand. I wanted to learn about God and how much he loved me, without being beaten bloody for not knowing the "Lord's Prayer" when I was two.

This is a beautiful article. I was particularly touched that your wife waited patiently for God to bring her the right husband at the right time. As the mother of 4 daughters (and 2 sons) I sometimes wonder how God will find good spouses for them all without them being involved in the usual 'dating' scene. I know it can be done but stories like yours help.