The Poison of Indifference
Julianna Morlet is the girl behind the lifestyle blog, The Girl That Sings. Her blog is focused on her journey as a homemade singer, writer, speaker. If she could sum up who she is in one sentence it'd be, "A visionary idealist who wishes to conquer the world before her 25th birthday." She is the eldest of six children, and is being well-seasoned and fashioned by this life. From sexual abuse, to a blended family, to a baby sister with leukemia, to college in the mid-west and her journey as a homemade singer and worship leader, she has been led to a faith in God that cannot be shaken. You can find her at juliannamorlet.com, Facebook, and Twitter.
- 2012 Apr 04
Indifferent is a dangerous state of being. It means one's feelings are becoming numb. It represents lack of interest orhaving no particular interest; unconcerned. One just is. It is often mistaken for acceptance, denial, or tolerance, but it's much much shadier than that.
Indifference is the silent killer of all things good.
Indifference is poison in my body. It is slowly killing whatever raw emotion I have left. My heart has gone from excitement to disappointment, disappointment to hope, hope to anger, and recently anger to indifference. I'm trying hard to grasp onto what is good, noble, true and lovely. But my world has gone from color to various shades of grey one too many times.
Where there was once longing, there is a gaping hole whose yearning to be filled has ceased. It is complacent being wide open, exposed and unfulfilled.
It is in times like these I cling to these words:
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
I don't feel them, but they are truth none the less. So in this state of complacency, this dangerous phase of indifference, I will seek, with all my heart, the wisdom that can only come from God. Otherwise, this thing is going to kill me, and that just can't happen.
Are you experiencing or have you experienced the poison of indifference?
How do you keep yourself from giving in?