{getting over yourself}
an inspirational entry on ignoring others

The beauty of life's lessons sometimes comes through embarrassment.

It was one of those rainy days and my plans to write outdoors were changed to the local Starbucks. I wasn't super thrilled about the location change. Because when writing, I tend to get a little crazy.

And by crazy I mean talking to myself, singing, head bopping, and sometimes crying. Not exactly socially acceptable. But it was either the coffee shop or my one bedroom apartment I'd been cooped up in all morning.

The coffee shop would suffice. I ordered my Trenta Iced Green Tea, stuck in my headphones, turned on Adele, and started gliding my pen across the worn pages of my journal.

I found myself first tapping my feet, then bopping my head, and the next thing I knew I was full on singing for an audience of less than enthusiastic fellow consumers. The color of my face quickly matched my hot pink shirt and I wanted to curl up in a corner and die.

How did that even happen?! Did I forget where I was? I thought for sure the aroma of grinding coffee beans and old man cologne would keep my senses in tune.

I couldn't remember the moment my mind faded from my surroundings to the music in my head. It happened so fast!

It reminded me of my daily struggle with self-centeredness.

Not that singing in a coffee shop is the epitome of being self-centered. But the quick switch from external awareness to internal awareness totally catches me off guard.

One minute I'm serving others and the next, complaining about being inconvenienced. One moment my heart is burdened for the unjust world and the next I'm whining I have nothing to wear, eat, or _______ {fill in the blank}.

Needless to say, I was fully convicted in that little coffee shop. I reached for my Bible to search for truth. Truth that would help me focus on what's happening outside the bubble of my own heart and mind. I knew that was a dangerous place to set up camp. Yet, if it had not been for that embarrassing fiasco of me, myself, and Adele, I may have done exactly that.

Something else ...
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life. ~Philippians 2:14-15

Honor one another above yourselves. ~Romans 12:10b

Julianna writes mostly in coffee shops, although after her recent experience she's thinking about trying cave writing. She blogs regularly at juliannamorlet.com. Connect with her on Facebook and Twitter.

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