Surrendering Your Heart Fully to the Lord
- Tuesday, March 18, 2003
I was recently diagnosed with a heart condition. The Great Physician did not hold back when He revealed to me the condition of my heart. Unlike a heart condition that is diagnosed by an earthly physician, the cure for my own heart condition was death - not a physical death, but the death of who I thought I was, yet more importantly, the death of my self.
The condition was revealed, not in a quiet time with the Lord, but in a room filled with more than 1000 women. We were all tuned in to Debby Johnson, a missionary, giving a simple, yet profound message based on Mark 12:30, "And you shall love the LORD your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength. This is the first commandment."
As she encouraged us to examine the condition of our hearts, I vehemently asked the Lord to show me if there be anything in my heart that would block me from fellowship with Him.
I saw before me that picture of Jesus knocking on that big wooden door. Quietly to my heart, the Lord showed me that indeed I had opened the door, and was saved by grace. But that I had replaced the door with a glass door, which I repeatedly washed with window cleaner. He showed me that I was always so busy letting Him see into my heart, only through a clean glass door, that I didn't allow Him full access to my heart. You see, friends, it's a great yet terrible day when the Lord reveals to your heart, that you have been failing to allow the Lord unconditional access.
It was terrible because of the grieving I felt over living a life that was not fully His. Yet, the incredible joy at finally knowing why I continued to strive for Him, when I knew He was there all the time. I always felt that He was so close, but almost unreachable at times. It was like a thirst that could not be quenched.
I've read every book on the market about desiring for God, because I knew that my soul longed to commune with Him on a continual basis. My frustration with Adam and Eve was not that we live in a sinful world, although that is sometimes a frustration, but the one thing I desperately longed for was that fellowship with the Lord they had in the beginning but eliminated for the rest of us. Then I would read stories of people who seemed to have that fellowship. And even I would have glimpses of it now and then, but I knew there was a missing element.
That was the great part of the revelation from Him. I now know what was missing. The missing element was that I was trying to bring about His presence in my life by cleaning the glass door to my heart.
In the book, "They Found the Secret" by V. Raymond Edmond, Adoniram Judson Gordon states, "Instead of praying constantly for the descent of a divine influence there was now a surrender, however imperfect, to a divine and ever-present Being; instead of a constant effort to make use of the Holy Spirit for doing my work there arose a clear and abiding conviction that the true secret of service lay in so yielding to the Holy Spirit that he might use me to do his work..."
When I read this just yesterday, I knew that Adoniram had found the secret. I knew that the Lord had also revealed the secret to me. It's not even a secret that hasn't been uttered for the true secret to continual fellowship with the Most High, is simply yet almost impossible; it is dying to self. It is breaking down the glass door, risking everything to allow the Lord instant access and continual residence into the very depths of my being. It isn't about continually trying to clean the door. It is about breaking down all the barriers that I have erected, which prevent access.
Perhaps even more importantly it means that rather than checking with the Lord to see if what I'm doing is within His will. It means that continual fellowship with Him will allow me to know that every step I take, I take with Him.
Let's all break down the barriers and live the life that is so full of the Lord dwelling in us, that we will be spewing His light every where we go.
In addition to devoting herself to her husband and the eight children she home schools, Terri also enjoys writing and speaking to offer encouragement to women in an effervescent, humorous way. Visit her Web site at http://www.ignitethefire.com/ or e-mail her at email@example.com.
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