Crisis Averted, Kind Of

I survived my late night crisis, but not for the right reasons. I’d been around long enough to experience the emotional ebbs and flows of ministry life. And this wasn’t the first time I’d wrestled with such thoughts after a long and draining day of youth ministry. So I went to bed hoping that things would be better in the morning.

But I still hadn’t resolved the question of my calling. That wouldn’t come until much later. Because I continued to think of “the call” as a direct, divine mandate, a burning bush experience that all pastors must have in order to be real pastors, that question sat on my shoulder like some kind depraved woodpecker, poking me repeatedly with the nagging doubt that maybe I wasn’t really one of the called.

I wish I had read Augustine’s story earlier.

Marc Cortez is a theology professor and Dean at Western Seminary, husband, father, & blogger, who loves theology, church history, ministry, pop culture, books, and life in general. Visit him at