Get Serious About Being Happy

I have struggled with the "feeling " of being happy for all of my adult life . and probably longer as well. I can honestly say that I have no clue what it is to be happy. I was"happy " when my son was born and when I got married and when I did certain things with our family . Yet , deep down , I wasn't really happy nor content. I have severe depression nas I struggle with that on a daily basis. I do take medication and it does help . However, it doesn't make me Happy. I try to be happy . I want to be happy . I just simply do not know how to be. I hear what I am suppose to do and I have tried to do it. i have been in thr=erapy for over 25 years . that tells you something ,doesn't i t? . so , why am I so miserable. ? and I am miserable . I have far too many problems in my life forit to matter anymore or to anyone. I am an adult child of 2 alcoholics . that , too , should tel you something. what do I do ? where do I start/ I have prayed my guts out and I have asked God to reveal to me gv

Does your pastor's counsel match what scripture says about being unequally yoked? Trust God to take care of all of your needs; I say this in case you stay with your alcoholic, non-believing husband out of "practical" concerns. I will pray for you!

I really am working on getting happy, but the only thing holding me back is my alcoholic husband. I would like to move on in my life, so that I am not constantly lied too, manipulated, emotionally and mentally abused. When that all happens I believe I can be happy. And I do feel God telling me it is okay now, as I have been dealing with this for over 18 years. But in some of the literature I am reading today, I don't know if it is the right decision to move on and truly find myself or to stay with an alcoholic who will stand on my front lawn (beer in hand) and scream "If there really is a God, strike me dead now". He is totally against realigion. I do pray for him and my congregation prays for him, but I don't see him changing. He did get sober for 7 years, but he still always lied to me. I am bi-polar and have anexiety disorder and his mental and emtional abuse really are going to push me over the edge. Any Suggestions?
J. Carmen