Stuck In The Numb
Sarah Martin Crosswalk.com blogspot for Sarah Martin of Live It Out blog
- 2013 Nov 19
Thank you everyone for joining in on the conversation a couple of weeks ago, Living In The Raw. For those of you who commented, you inspire me. It takes courage to even talk about those raw parts of our heart. For me, that might have been the most vulnerable I've been on the world wide web, which says alot as I try my best to be open and honest at all times. One sweet reader added to the convo with this really great question which I thought would be a good follow up discussion for us all. Here is what Chelsea added to the conversation...
I know how you feel, I often feel RAW…But I also struggle with my heart feeling NUMB. Anyone else struggle with that? Any help? Thanks!
I've been thinking about this so much. I even sat down several times to address this idea of feeling numb. One day I just couldn't get my ideas to gel. The other day, I was dealing with major computer drama that prevented me from operating on my blog! But, as I let this idea simmer, I realize that I've felt this quite often yet I've called it by a different name: blah. So, I'm wondering if we could ask ourselves a question when we are stuck in the numb feelings in our heart and mind: Is there some raw patch in our spirit or a tenderness in our heart that we just can't talk ourselves into addressing? Are we allowing that numb feeling--blah feeling--to cover up the spots in our hearts that we would rather not expose and deal with? Is it easier to just feel numb ? Just a thought... I think both of these feelings, the raw and the numb go hand and hand sometimes as life gets in the way not allowing us to sit still and look deep. I feel like I need to stop right here and just circle back to a Bible verse that has meant so very much to me over the years. Take a look at it and visualize your mighty King waiting with an ever gracious, ever careful, ever gentle hand to lead you down the road to explore the raw and the numb...healing awaits.
Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God’s unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it]. Hebrews 4:16 Amplified Bible