We made a decision to turn our wills and our lives over to the care of God.
Please love me!" Isn't this the whispered cry of our hearts? We may be afraid to admit it for fear of rejection, but we are all hungry for love. Some of us are starving because of previous losses. We find ourselves gathering whatever crumbs we can find to fill that hunger deep inside.
Ruth was a young woman who had known loss and hunger. Her husband died, leaving her without any means of emotional or physical sustenance. She followed her mother-in-law, Naomi, to a foreign land and was forced to gather leftover grain from the harvested fields just to stay alive. The man who owned the fields was a relative who could, if he so chose, marry Ruth and fulfill her needs for love and protection. Naomi told her to go to the threshing floor where this man, Boaz, was sleeping and curl up at his feet. Culturally, this displayed a request to be taken care of. Boaz was quite happy to find Ruth there and married her, providing the love and provision she had lost and now longed for (Ruth 1-4).
In turning our lives over to God we need to venture toward developing healthy love relationships with people and with God. It's scary to say "please love me," but it's worth the risk. If we don't fill our hunger for love in a legitimate way, we'll be driven back toward our addictive/compulsive behaviors. We can be sure that when we "curl up" at the feet of Jesus, he will be glad to find us there. He will provide for us, protect us, and love us.
When we risk reaching out to God, he fills the deep longings of our souls.