I Never Saw It Coming
Jeff LyleJeff Lyle is a ridiculously happy husband to Amy with whom he shares the privilege of raising a daughter and son in metro-Atlanta. Serving the people of New Bridge Church, Jeff is also the founder of Transforming Truth Ministries. Through their global media outreach, Transforming Truth serves the Body of Christ via television, a Roku channel and written devotions on the Transforming Truth website. Jeff pours his life into strengthening the Church according to God’s Word, avoiding non-biblical traditions and passing trends in ministry, in order to come alongside people who long to be transformed by God’s truth. Transforming Truth PO Box 1990 Flowery Branch, GA 30542 1.800.930.5194 TransformingTruth.org JeffLyle@transformingtruth.org
- 2015 Feb 22
Today I am remembering the day I knew that You had found me. I’m recalling the lightness in my soul when I crawled off that worn piece of carpet in my apartment bedroom as one who had been forgiven. I can almost sense the comfort of those sheets on the bed (really, just a mattress on the carpet) when I got up off the floor and rolled into them. You gave me peaceful rest that day and it was the first time I could ever recall feeling calmness in my heart. I was twenty-four years old and had experienced a rescue from You that, still today, I do not fully fathom. In that moment I knew that You had shifted something in my soul and You confirmed it over and over again during the next two days when I found that my longing to get drunk or high had been completely removed from me. I experienced the delight of deliverance as I had experienced something greater. You did that, King. You rescued me. You made me new. You loved me out of my self-imposed misery and I was like a little boy set free in an all-expenses paid theme park for the very first time. You introduced me to shameless freedom. You lavished me with unexpected kindness. I was made to hear Your voice and was so surprised to hear its welcoming and affirming tone. My assumption was that You would be so disappointed and angry with me if I ever met up with You. That is why I ran from You for so many years – I assumed You would reject me for how I had been living and for who I had become. Thank You for blowing my mind and showing me mercy I could not have expected, grace I could not understand and unconditional love that I had never fathomed. You are an unspeakably good God.
Today, 20+ years later, I just want to say thank You all over again. The words themselves are not enough but they are the best that I have. Lord Jesus, You have blessed me beyond what I can tabulate. Holy Spirit, it is late in the game but I now know that You are the One who draws alongside and the comfort and joy that You pour into me is priceless. Abba - how nervous I once was to call you that! – you are my Father, my Daddy, my Papa. You have taught me the release of not striving to have it all together. You welcome me into Your lap and allow me to rest there for as long as I desire. Once upon a time, You were merely my best idea, my highest theology, my consummate message. Those days have graduated now because of Your relentless work of grace toward me. Now, You are my life, my hope, my joy, my longing. I know what You have done. I didn’t see it coming. I did not ask for it but You determined to do this for me. I never would have guessed in a million years that this would have been your highest aim: You have made me to know Your love for me which has resulted in You becoming my own greatest love. You, Abba, made a God-lover out of me. No longer a mere God-fearer who honors you. No longer just a God-server who works for You. You rebirthed me into a God-lover who adores You.
Thank You for making me into this. Thank You for not allowing me to feast on religion while starving on intimacy. You are the eye-opening, spirit-enlightening, soul-expanding God. I never saw it coming. Now I will never need to fear seeing it leaving. You have made me grateful and you have made me glad.