When I hung up, I was immediately struck with a sinking feeling.  A feeling similar to the one I had felt when I had passed on the horse I originally considered buying.  I quickly called the ranch owner back and asked him if I could come out to the ranch to look at other horses he owned.  He agreed that he would meet me during lunch.  He had told me he had quarter horses that I could look at.  Even though these were not the breed of horses that I wanted, I felt strongly that I needed to go to his ranch.

My husband and I arrived at the ranch around lunchtime.  I felt having two opinions for horse buying were better than one, although, at the time, my husband knew as little about horses as I did.  When we arrived, the man that I had spoken to on the phone was waiting for me.  The minute I got out of the car, he introduced himself to us and began to talk about the paint horse mare.  I was a little irritated about this because I had distinctly told him I was not interested in buying a mare.  But he was insistent.  As he shook my hand he said, “I have something I need to tell you about the mare”.   Many thoughts went through my head, including, “I’m not interested in the mare or she probably has three legs”.  What he said next, changed my world and almost sent me literally falling to the ground. 

He looked at me and said, “What I need to tell you about the mare is I named her “Bob” because I wanted a boy”.  I instantly felt my knees begin to buckle under my weight.  I thought of my dream in which the name “Bob” was shown to me.  I felt dizzy for a moment because I wasn’t sure if what was happening was real or another dream.  I looked over at my husband to get my bearings.  My husband was grinning ear to ear.  Not wanting to say anything to the owner of the horse about my dream or my physical state at the moment, I managed to walk silently on toward the horse.  Within a short distance, there she was.  The mare named “Bob”.  How many female horses are named “Bob”?  I’ve only known one.

Needless to say, I ended up taking her home the very next day.  When we went to pick her up, I remember seeing her for the first time after she had been bathed and groomed.  It was a far cry from the day before when she was dirty and had matted hair. I remember saying out loud while choking back tears, “She is so beautiful she takes my breath away”.   God had given me the perfect horse.  He had guided me to her by a name in a dream and even where to find her.  I later realized after I had “Bob” safely in her new home, that the red flowers and green vines that I had seen on my back during the dream was clover.  The name of the horse ranch where I had first met “Bob” included the word “clover” as part of its name. 

I knew “Bob” was a gift from God because of the unusual set of circumstances that brought us together.  However, I wouldn’t discover until later that He would use her to bring me closer to Him.   You see, “Bob” was a horse for an advanced rider.  I was a beginner.  In order to ride her I had to get over my fears and begin to trust.  God used her to teach me that as a “beginner” in my walk with Him, I needed to have faith,  I needed to put my trust in something bigger than myself, and I needed to fully let go of my control in order to have the courage to ride “Bob” and ultimately to draw closer to Him.  These basic concepts are all required of us as Christians to grow in our relationship with God.  These were concepts, however, that I was fully unaware of and never practiced in my life.  While in the beginning I thought owning a horse was all about horseback riding, I discovered through my challenges that it was much more important than that.  It had been about developing the most important relationship of all; my relationship with God.  God had begun this most significant journey to Him through an unlikely source.  My journey had commenced by God introducing me to a horse named “Bob”.

Susan J. Calloway Knowles is a Licensed Christian Marriage & Family Therapist and former practicing Family Law Attorney.  She is also a Christian music Songwriter.  Susan’s songs can be found at www.worshipsong.com.  Her website is www.susanknowles.com.

Publication date: October 11, 2012