I was in a church recently where I Have Decided to Follow Jesus was sung. It’s been quite a while since I’ve heard it since it seems to have been replaced in popularity by many newer, hipper and cooler praise and worship songs.  

Nevertheless, the timeless lyrics of this hymn still pertain, maybe more than ever in this changing world of ours.

I have decided to follow Jesus,
no turning back, no turning back.

Though no one join me, still I will follow,
no turning back, no turning back.

The world behind me, the cross before me,
no turning back, no turning back.

The last several months I have been struggling with my personal “relationship” with…Facebook and Twitter. I have accounts with both and try to stay somewhat current and up to date with what is going on with my friends and those I follow, but have been somewhat convicted by the whole “follow” thing, especially since hearing this song again.

When friends, speakers and educators want me to follow them, I usually do so out of respect, friendship or a desire to learn. In the same way, when I feel I have positive things to share, I’ll try to post for whomever to read and enjoy.

I have found times in my social media relationships where I have un-followed or de-friended an acquaintance because I didn’t want to continue hearing about their meals, animals, antics, opinions, or “farm” (or someone else’s they re-post).

Nowadays, it has become almost too commonplace for us to follow, un-follow, friend or de-friend people online (and even in person).

As recorded in the gospels, Jesus asked many to “Follow me,” some did immediately without hesitation and others felt there were things more important at the time.

“Matthew got up and followed him” (Matthew 9:9).

“At once they (Simon and Andrew) left their nets and followed him” (Mark 1:18).

"When the young man heard this (sell your possessions and give to the poor), he went away sad, because he had great wealth" (Matthew 19:21-22).

"But the man replied, 'Lord, first let me go and bury my father.' Still another said,'"I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say good-by to my family'" (Luke 9:59, 61).

I wonder how each of us would respond if Jesus appeared right now and asked us point blank to “Follow me.”

Would we immediately click “follow,” only later to un-follow, or maybe ask Jesus to follow us just until we were ready to follow him?

The last couple of months I have been sharing parts of the difficult season of life I have been in. Three of my family members have passed away over the past four months, my family has had several major home issues and I have been trying to find some stability after being somewhat homeless by my travels, all the while being single and feeling somewhat alone.

I can honestly and candidly say recently, I have been mad at God.

I have struggled with wanting to read the Word of God, I have not had an exuberant desire to praise his name and I have not wanted to worship much. However, all along this journey of mine, I have not denounced my faith, I never thought about walking away from the church and it never crossed my mind to un-follow him.

As a result, I have experienced some things I know could have only been God’s Will, in his timing, for my benefit and to bless me. I have received the love of many friends, help from (former) strangers, opportunities to serve ministries and to grow in my faith.