I was surprised to read that at 45 you feel that it’s too late for you to find a loving husband. This is an example of your profound discouragement, while the facts of the matter are that with the right counsel and direction, you still have many opportunities for love. Finding love, however, is both an art and a science—you need to understand what it takes to find love, make sure you’re completely ready for love, take the appropriate actions, and then make certain your spiritual house is in order as well.
I want to remind you that Abba Father has not abandoned or forgotten about you. You are His precious daughter, and He certainly wants to bless you.
Remember His words: “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks, it will be opened.” (Matthew 7: 7-8)
Finally, consider getting some counseling for help with your discouragement. While it’s okay to feel discouragement, it’s critical not to get stuck in discouragement. We also need to listen to our discouragement to see if we need to make an adjustment in our direction. It can be a fruitful time to listen to God as well. I hope you’ll explore ways to get back in the game—and play it to win!!