The key moment happened in an interview when Camp was asked, as he often is, to share his testimony. As he told the story, he recounted his late wife’s words, that if even one person were somehow drawn to Christ through her death, it would be worth it. But this time, he suddenly found himself overwhelmed and had to stop the interview.

For the first time he saw a “bigger picture” of how the tragedy of her death had already been used by God as a means of bringing the reality of a sympathetic Christ to thousands of people. In fact, his whole ministry, in some ways, could be traced back to the sorrow and confusion that surrounded Melissa’s death.

“It just hit me; it completely floored me,” he says. “I felt like this fog kind of cleared, and I had to stop. … God had just opened up my eyes to show me the thousands of stories and people I’d talked to, how God has radically done things in people’s hearts and how people who have been through atrocious things and things that just blow your mind, how God has really used the songs and the ministry to dig deep into [their] lives. It just started humbling me. I got on my face, and I was just crying. I thought of my family, Adriane and Isabella, and I thought, ‘I wouldn’t have even thought of having a family years ago because of everything that had happened,’ and I just started to feel so grateful for what God is doing in my life.

“There’s a scripture in Ephesians that says ‘He has done exceedingly more than all we can ask or imagine,’ and I think that was a huge thing God was showing me. ‘Look what I’ve done.’ And it just blew me away and humbled me completely and broke me down.”

1Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn, from "Solzhenitsyn:  A Pictorial Autobiography," p. 88, The Noonday Press, 1974

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