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Finding Hope When Life Drives You to the Edge

  • Cindi McMenamin Author, Women on the Edge
  • 2010 5 May
  • COMMENTS
Finding Hope When Life Drives You to the Edge

I remember a season of my life in which I was feeling desperate. My teenager was not giving me the verbal respect I felt I deserved. My husband, in hearing what was going on between us, was not intervening on my behalf. One evening I'd had it with that routine. I wanted out of the frustration, out of the house, out of everything. But I didn't know where to go.

I just want to go somewhere far away, I thought to myself. I am not appreciated. I am not  feeling respected by my daughter. I am not feeling supported by my husband. I am not feeling understood or loved in the slightest. (Now did you notice how many times I used the word  feeling and how many times I used the pronoun I? We get that way when we're on the edge.)

Aware of how much my thoughts were focused on me, and yet still feeling I had grounds in the battle I was fighting, I desperately wanted change - not just a change of circumstances, but to change. I desperately wanted wisdom to know how to respond to my daughter - and my husband - in a more mature way. 

I realize now why I was succumbing to the meltdown: 1) I was depending on my feelings, not the facts of the situation; 2) I was expecting everyone else around me to change, rather than looking at my own heart and actions; and 3) I was listening to those voices in my head rather than being the one to do the talking!

Today, I have a distress call - an S.O.S. - when I begin to feel like I'm going to go over the edge because of certain situations that feel out of control. It's all about Sorting the facts from the feelings; Offering my own heart to the Lord for change; and Starting to talk, rather than listen to, myself.

Sort the Facts from the Feelings

In my moment of frustration, I had to ask myself: What am I believing about God that isn't true? (I could best answer that question by looking at how I was feeling, and lining up the facts next to it:

  • I was feeling that God had abandoned me as a mother and left me to figure this out on my own. But the fact is that God has promised that He will never leave me nor forsake me; therefore He has not abandoned me as a mother (Hebrews 13:5).

  • I was feeling hopeless in my situation. But the fact is that God promises He will work all things (even that difficult season with my daughter) for good to those that love Him and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).

  • I was feeling alone in my situation, like He was unaware and unconcerned with my pain at the moment. But the fact is that God is aware of what I'm feeling at every moment. He has searched me and He knows me (Psalms 139:1-4).

  • I was feeling it was impossible for God to give me the kind of wisdom I needed to be a better mom, but the fact is God is able to give me the kind of wisdom I need because James 1:5 says "if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him."

In other words, I had to look at the facts (about God's character) and not at what I was feeling

"Offer My Heart to the Lord for Change"

My prayer as I was feeling so lousy was not change my daughter's heart as it started out. It was not open my husband's eyes as it started out. But God, grant me the discernment and the grace to treat and respond to my daughter and my husband in a way that draws a loving response out of them.

I had to look at my own heart and say God, show me what I need to do to be more like You even though I was convinced that day that they were both the problem. And even if they were the problem, my responsibility is to go to God and say: In what way does my heart need to change so I can be more pleasing to You in this situation?

The prayer: Change me, God, not all of them is usually where real change starts.

Start Talking to Yourself

Now you may be thinking "if I start talking to myself, then I really have gone over the edge!" But I found I needed to incorporate this principle in my life to keep me from going over the edge!

We are told in 2 Corinthians 10:5 to "demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God" and to "take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." The reason we are to take every one of our thoughts captive is because our thoughts will wreak havoc in our lives if they are allowed to run loose. Bind them. Imprison them in the truth. Keep them from running rampant through your head!

In Psalms 42, the songwriter's solution to this problem was to start talking to himself:

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. (verse 5)


Instead of listening to his downcast soul, the songwriter started telling it where to find its hope. He started telling himself what he would do: "Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him."

As you send out your S.O.S. (Sort the facts from the feelings, Offer your own heart for change, and Start telling yourself what to do) you will be able to cling to the truth and not fall so easily over the edge.

May 11, 2010

Cindi McMenamin is a national speaker and the author of several books, including When Women Walk Alone, When You're Running on Empty, and Women On the Edge. For more on her books or ministry, see www.StrengthForTheSoul.com.