May 19, 2020
I Am At Rest
Friend to Friend
I took a deep breath and prayed, “Thank You, Father, for showing up tonight. Thank You for the magnificent display of Your power!” It had been a long time since I had witnessed the power of the Holy Spirit at work in such an amazing way. I felt as if each word I spoke, each step I took was saturated with His power and His favor. That night, it truly was all about Him!
I have been speaking for women’s events for 25 years … and absolutely love it! It’s my passion and my calling. I have had many jobs over the years – elementary school teacher, insurance agent, high school Bible teacher, choir director, church pianist, women’s ministry director … but I always came back to teaching His Word to women who are hungry for more – more of God.
The messier the women are, the more I love it. I think I am drawn to broken women because I am a broken woman who has experienced the healing power of God. Love called me and grace saved me. It is a message I have to share! It is my story. I love the Christian song, Nobody, that Matthew West sings: “I’m just a nobody, trying to tell everybody about Somebody who saved my soul.” Yep! That’s it!
As I stood, just taking in the women before me – kneeling at the altar, weeping, crying out to God for forgiveness, for salvation, for help facing the giants before them – a woman walked up to me. With tears streaming down her face, she spoke in jagged whispers, “Mary, thank you for being so transparent tonight, sharing your story – your real and raw story. It is my story, too. To know that I am not alone means everything. I know it must be hard to travel and speak, but please don’t stop. We need you.”
I prayed with her and watched her walk away, her words ringing in my ears. Yes – it is hard for me to travel and speak. I have thought about quitting many times. I still battle depression. I have a seriously bad back – Scoliosis, degenerative disc disease, stenosis and arthritis riddle my spine.
But I have to go. I have to follow that burning desire that rises from the depths of my soul. It will not let me stay. It makes me go!
It costs me every time I travel to an event and speak. I give pieces of myself away in speaking, counseling, praying … walking with wounded women who need a helping hand. Physically, it takes me a few days to recover after an event. The stress of flying and travel has a hefty price tag dangling from it. But it is a price I pay with absolute joy – knowing it pleases my Father – knowing it is a step of obedience in the plan He created just for me.
You see, I am not an accident, although I may not have been planned by my father and mother. Even though I was not wanted or planned in the heart and mind of man, I was planned and wanted in the heart and mind of God. Oh friend, that is more than enough for every step I take, whether it is in the midst of a hellish storm or in a sweet and peaceful valley.
The plan came first!
God created me in response to the perfect plan He has for me. And because He created me with a plan in mind, I am at rest in Him.
I am at rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my stronghold; I will never be shaken (Psalm 62:1-2).
Father, I am tired today. I need Your strength to go on. I want to walk in obedience to Your plan for my life for as long as I possibly can. Thank You for the privilege of serving You. Thank You for including me in your plan. You didn’t have to … but You did! And I praise You and celebrate the life You have given me. Help me to be faithful.
In Jesus’ Name,
Now It’s Your Turn
Read Psalm 139:13-14 once a day this week. You are loved, chosen and wanted by God. Celebrate the incredible fact that you were created by God – for God.
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