As Far as the East Is from the West
"For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us." (Ps. 103:11–12)
“As far as the east is from the west.” I read those words, yet how I have struggled to apply them to my own life!
Why does it seem so easy to tell others that God has forgiven them and sometimes so hard to accept it ourselves?
For many years, I spoke and gave my testimony and had people come up to me telling me how it encouraged them. I would then get in my car and want to throw up because I would remember my past sins. I knew those women in the audience didn’t really know everything about me, and I knew they certainly didn’t know that I had told my best friend—my sweet, tall, dark, and handsome turned pitiful, drug-addicted husband—that I hated him only a few days before he committed suicide.
For years, I had told no one. For years, I had pleaded with God that Rick remembered my words of love the last morning I saw him and not my stinging horrible words the night before. I drove to his grave many times and watered the grass with my tears. I couldn’t take those words back. I prayed God would somehow tell Rick I was so sorry, and I prayed God would forgive me. Yet for years, I didn’t accept God’s forgiveness, and the awful scene played over and over in my head like a horror movie.
Then one day the Holy Spirit helped me realize it wasn’t God who wants to remind me of those hurtful words—it was the enemy who wants to drown me in shame and make me feel unworthy to tell others about my story of God’s goodness in my life.
This I know: Without God, I am nothing but a heap of tears and regrets, but because of the cross I am forgiven. Completely, forever forgiven!
As I follow God daily and seek out His Truth, I can fend off the lies of enemy and keep on walking in freedom. I’m not perfect and I never will be, but because of Jesus my sins (the old ones and the new ones) are removed as far as the east is from the west (Ps. 103:12).
I seek to live my life every day as He would have me live it—not because I could ever be good enough, but because He is the One who knows all the answers, makes no mistakes, and perfectly loves the sinner that I am. He did it all. His blood is enough. He is my everything. And He provides freedom over my sin, guilt, and regret.
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