March 2, 2009
What if I was Broken?
Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.
Micah 7:8 (NIV)
His question made me stop and think. It was a simple comment, said in a teasing manner, but it instantly struck a chord in my heart.
I was cleaning out a kitchen cabinet, which had become cluttered with items that I rarely used. One of those items was an old broken can opener. I handed it to my nine year-old son and asked him to throw it away, but instead of just tossing it into the trash can, he asked if he could keep it. Why in the world would a little boy want an old, dirty, useless can opener?
He continued to try to convince me that he needed to keep it, until I finally said, “Honey, it is broken, I don’t want it or need it anymore, so throw it away please.” Then came his question, “Well if I was broken, would you just throw me away?”
Huh? This conversation about a silly can opener had gotten way too complicated. I assured him that I would never throw him away, no matter what, because he was too valuable to me. I gave him a hug, and he skipped off into the den to watch TV, while I stood there stunned, pondering his question.
I was reminded of a time when I was so broken, and felt dirty and useless. I remembered how a bad decision I made as a young girl caused me to spend years believing that I had no redeeming value in God’s eyes. I recalled the regret that suffocated my heart for years, and how I felt God could never really love a sinner like me. I vividly remembered the overwhelming pain and regret of feeling broken, and void of worth, beauty or value.
But a smile came to my face as I remembered the day when God healed that brokenness. Sitting alone on a pew during a worship service eight years ago, tears were pouring down my face. I begged God to forgive me for my sins, just as I had done for fourteen years, but this time it was different. This time I felt God’s presence and believed in His forgiveness. For the first time, I had heard His voice ring in the ears of my heart, reassuring me that I was way too valuable to be thrown away.
The following day I realized something was different. My past was still my past, but I was no longer broken. The damaged pieces of my heart were mended, and I set out on a wonderful journey to discover my worth in Gods eyes, not my own eyes. I believed that I really was too valuable to be thrown away, and that God not only could love someone like me, but that HE DID.
Are you feeling broken today? Do you see yourself as someone who God could not possibly love? Do you spend each day condemning yourself for past sins, current habits, damaged relationships, poor choices, or even self-harming behavior?
Do you wish you could stop feeling broken, or stop continuing a pattern of sin in your life, but simply do not know how? Do you ever feel like you are just too messed up to be “fixed”?
Friend, despite what you may think, you are not beyond repair. You are nothing like that dirty, broken can opener. As a child of God, you are precious, beautiful, and yes, even more valuable than gold. Whatever your situation, God can mend that crushing feeling of hopelessness and brokenness. With faith, ask Him to.
Will you delight Him by accepting His grace, mercy and forgiveness? Will you give Him the opportunity to mend you today?
Dear Lord, forgive me and heal me. Mend my brokenness. Give me hope. Help me to see myself through Your eyes only. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
Reinventing Your Rainbow by Tracie Miles
Accept God’s forgiveness.
Trust His Word.
Believe in His sovereignty over your heart and life.
Believe in His power.
Ask Him for strength to fight off the temptations that keep you buried in feelings of unworthiness.
Do you frequently think negative thoughts about yourself?
Has something or someone made you feel worthless?
Have you asked God to mend your brokenness and truly believed that He can and will?
Matthew 9:12-13, “On hearing this, Jesus said, ’It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: “I desire mercy, not sacrifice.“ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’" (NIV)
Psalm 147:3, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” (NIV)
Isaiah 54:11-12, 14, “O you afflicted one, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems, and lay your foundations with sapphires. I will make your pinnacles of rubies, your gates of crystal, and all your walls of precious stones. In righteousness you shall be established; you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; and from terror, for it shall not come near you.” (NKJV)
© 2009 by Tracie Miles. All rights reserved.
Proverbs 31 Ministries
Matthews, NC 28105