Hungry for God
Hungry for God
Turn to Me with all your heart, with fasting, weeping, and mourning. (Joel 2:12)
I was one of those women who thought she had it all together. No need to worry about me, God. I can handle this. Those people over in Africa need You more. I’m OK here on my own. Of course, I didn’t really think that out loud, but my actions proved otherwise. Then during a series of events and circumstances, God showed me that I didn’t have it all together.
My youngest daughter was born with a seizure disorder, my husband’s business failed resulting in extended unemployment, and I was diagnosed with melanoma. I have now come face-to-face with my failures and disappointments with myself, some of my relationships, and yes, even my walk with the Lord. I’ve prayed for direction and guidance, but heaven remains silent. My sister suggested that I fast, as the ancients did.
Though I was raised in the church, I didn’t know much about fasting. I knew that Jesus told His followers “whenever you fast,” not “if you fast” (see Matt. 6:16), signifying it was a practice we should follow.
After doing some research, I found that the children of Israel and Christians through the ages fasted because of repentance, need, sickness, national deliverance, and many other reasons. Fasting should not be done to get what we want but as a way to step back from the clutter and noise of our everyday lives to draw close to Jesus.
Fasting seems to be an abandoned practice, possibly because we don’t understand what fasting is, how to do it, or what it will accomplish. But in using our own forsaken desires to feast on God alone, He teaches us about ourselves, and He reveals His heart to us. Fasting is not something we do for God; it’s a way of reconnecting us with our Father.