Never the Same
Never the Same
Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed in pure water. (Heb. 10:22)
My fifteen-year-old daughter, Jodi, needed to work on a school project, but our main computer had crashed. So I told her to use the computer in her dad’s office. A few minutes later she walked into the kitchen. “Mom?” she asked, looking pale.
“What is it? Is something wrong with Dad’s computer?”
“It’s fine. I went to pull up the website I was on yesterday, and I saw several weird sites listed. I clicked one and a porn site came up. Do you think Dad is into porn?”
“What? No! Dad would never do anything like that!”
“But, Mom,” she said, “go see for yourself.”
After sending her to her room, I slowly walked into the office. What I saw on that computer screen was vile! I ran to the bedroom and wept, punching and screaming into the pillows so Jodi wouldn’t hear. After a while Jodi knocked on the door. “Mom? Are you OK?”
“Just a minute,” I said, blowing my nose and opening the door. She’d been crying too. “What’s going to happen now?” she whispered, as I hugged her. “Do you think he’s addicted?”
“I hope not. I’m so sorry you saw that, Jodi. I will pray that God will completely erase it from your mind and free you from it. And I want us to pray for your dad.” She nodded. I hugged her again, knowing our lives would never be the same.
Pornography addiction destroys marriages, families, and lives. If your husband is viewing porn in any form, know that you are not the cause. He chose that sin, and he must repent from it. Resist the temptation to believe it will go away on its own. He needs counseling and firm accountability.