One thing that may make it hard to believe in God is that life often seems unfair to us. We didn't ask to be born into a dysfunctional family! We didn't have any say over the abuses and injustices we suffered! We didn't choose our predisposition toward addiction! And yet we're held accountable over something we can't control on our own! This makes it hard to initially turn to God, as the Power to restore our sanity. He seems unreasonable in his demands!
Job understood these feelings. In the midst of his suffering he said, "How frail is humanity! How short is life, how full of trouble! We blossom like a flower and then wither. Like a passing shadow, we quickly disappear. Must you keep an eye on such a frail creature and demand an accounting from me? Who can bring purity out of an impure person?" (Job 14:1-4).
That's a good question-one which most people, especially addicts, have asked themselves in one form or another. Job persisted in his questioning because deep inside he believed God to be good and fair, even though life wasn't. He was honest with his emotions and questions, but he never stopped seeking God.
There's a good answer to the question posed by Job, one which will satisfy both our hearts and our minds. It will only be found, however, by those who are willing to work through the pain and unfairness of life, and still seek God. Those who seek him will find him, and the answers they seek as well.
No matter how unfair life may seem, God can offer hope in its darkest hours.