THE YOU OF TEN YEARS AGO
Send out your light and your truth; let them lead me; let them bring me to your holy hill and to your dwelling! Psalm 43:3
When the Word of God is spoken, the possibility for understanding and then transformation exists. Whether or not that occurs in the life of a person is dependent on their response to the hearing of the Word. Understanding what has been spoken depends on the person declaring themselves ‘simple’. “Lord, I do not have any wisdom about my life apart from you. I am a dark place without the light of your Word. Teach me.” To this person, the Word comes as a sword and slices an opening in the soul where the shaft of light can penetrate. When light touches darkness, the darkness is challenged. And, if the light is then embraced, the darkness will be transformed. The heart will be washed with the water of the Word and new thinking and feeling will occur. In a short time, behavior changes.
Take any disciple who has immersed themselves in the Word over a long period of time and they will tell you that they no longer think like the person who lived a decade ago. They will, most likely, have a hard time remembering how they were. This is true of me. The insecure and fearful woman of my thirties began to discover the life-shaping power of the Word of God and the light of God’s love touched my insecurity. The strength of God’s character collided with my fear. I began the journey of healing and am still discovering the cataclysmic effect of what happens when God’s Words unfold inside this simple woman. Boldness, spiritual understanding, and joy have been the biggest changes.
Light can be soft, enveloping me like a warm blanket. It can also be blinding and convicting. No matter how it comes, I must not run from it. Defending myself against the need of it would be my demise. Even when it sears, it saves. Running away for fear of change or exposure is my loss!
What Word do I need today? Comfort, guidance, assurance of something? My need exists because I’m aware of a dark place that is in desperate want of the Light. Need takes me to Jesus’ feet. Like Mary, I say “teach me”. The simple student is usually the teacher’s favorite. Is that not true? So whatever the Master says, let me be a student that soaks it in like a sponge.
When my heart faints because I have no plan to save myself, I come simply. Let the unfolding of Your Word bring light into my darkness. I live in hope of Your instruction. In Jesus name, Amen